And in this dark harvest of season
My life has completely lost reason,
For which or against to decide.
All lost in a savage and endless, bleak tide
In sadness and in kindness
In light and in darkness.
In a boat made of hope
I shall sail to tomorrow,
In a winding hurricane
Made of treachery and sorrow.
There's a spear, endless, and colossal spear...
Piercing, slashing though my head.
Starting somewhere in heaven,
Ending somewhere in hell.
Fighting, burning, crying, crashing.
Are the armies within.
In my head they are all thrashing.
On the heaven's and hell's whim.
To be light or to be darkness.
A perpetual array.
It's not merely my choi
Why speak of words that will trouble the souls of whom I love dearly?
Perhaps some words are better unsaid
I hear the devils in my mind tossing those words around and slamming them in to my skull as if they're made of steal than just fragile harmless letters
It's such a mystery to me that there isn't even a crack in place .
When it actually feels like every bone within me is shattered
Oh those words.. To keep them all locked inside is slowly breaking me apart
I want to scream on top of my lungs
Yell at this cursed life that has chosen me to suffer
Have I done something wrong to deserve this torment?
How can I redeem myself?
Or have I al
I have a tired weak mind thats lost
Would do anything to know the truth at any cost
I have a troubled mind that is in the dark
Would do anything to find a spark
I have a terrified heart that cries
Of tears invisible to any eyes
I have a heart that caries a love that would never die
A love so strong that lifts me up to fly
A love so beautiful that brings tears from my eyes
I have a heart that aches yet melts at the sound of your name
A heart that no matter what amount of pain it holds it's love will stay the same
My heart isn't lost It knows the truth
While my mind struggles to escape the painful claws of the lies
I might have lost my insanity
Moods constantly changing.
My mind is rearranging.
Feels like I'm under a hex.
Don't know who I'll be next.
One minute I am on high.
Next I think I may die.
Then I'm filled with apathy.
Next I think everyone hates me.
Then my heart starts to ache.
Next I have a nervous shake.
Then I sexually frustrate,
But I'm too upset to masturbate.
My moods have become a blur.
I quickly switch between me and her.
I can't tell who I am.
Am I me or am I Sam?
I don't know who I'll next be.
I'm dying for some consistency.
Why is it so hard to care?
I know that I should be there.
I ignore the bell I hear chime.
Instead I sit and waste time.
There's nothing that I want to do.
The things I enjoy are few.
I know that I should be at work,
But my responsibilities I shirk.
The pills make me no longer sad,
But apathy is just as bad.
So I just let time go by.
I wonder when I'll finally try.
The Words I Didn't Mean by SurvivingNights, literature
Literature
The Words I Didn't Mean
The Words I Didn't Mean
Your last steps seemed to echo
While I watched you walk away
You're leaving me in our love's shadow
And all I can feel is a piece of me break away
The shock starts to sink in
Every pore is conquered
A fissure begins within
I'm torn asunder
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Liquid memories drip from my face
My heart will always remember this kind of pain
The love that was shown on this day will remain in vain
I didn't know how much passion could weigh
Or the damage it could do when it betrays
Fused with the words that I never even wanted to say
Compassionless by nature / A lonesome torture
Unloved by liars / Sought by manipulators
Breathing in sh
In My Memories
My love for you felt like frost-bitten pins
My heart, body, mind, and soul were numbing
This double-edged conscience~
No hands were lent / No hands to take
Abandonment Abandonment Abandonment
Countless tears to shed / Countless tears to make
Abolishment Abolishment Abolishment
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The thoughts of you are like venomous-needles
After the emotions are injected the end seems less beautiful
Pain is unforgettable~
This unrequited suffering is self-made
No affection No affection No affection
I hoped you were the one but I fell for you too late
Bad medicine Bad medicine Bad medicine
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